Mummy Madness

I got married and had two children all in 3 years. My son, also my first child, was born with a health condition that required surgery and we spent our first 6 weeks of parenthood in a NICU at a children’s hospital. It was the most difficult time of my life. Even after he came home I struggled with anxiety, depression, fear and anger. I turned to writing and my words slowly allowed me to crawl out of the hole I had dug myself into. I was forever changed. I began to realize that I had the ability to help others who were struggling with their journey in parenthood. As parents, we all have moments where we aren't sure what we are doing. I continue to write and share my experiences in hopes that I can help part the clouds for someone who is struggling.

My first mistake was going to a mall with a specific time frame in mind and a three year old in tow. What was I thinking?  Yet, how could I resist? Mr. T was going to be in a class right across from a mall. I had a whole hour and a half to kill and a gift card had been burning a hole in my pocket for a few months so I thought now is the perfect time. At first it wasn’t so bad. Ms. J followed behind me like such a big little girl pointing...

My brother and I are very different from each other. I’m a city girl, he’s a country boy. I like to vacation at a beachside resort, he’s into wilderness camping. We were such opposites growing up and he frustrated me because, even though I loved him unconditionally, I didn’t always understand the person he was. The idea of my brother being a parent seemed so foreign to me. I knew that he wanted to have children, to raise a family but...

From almost the moment I met my husband I knew I had met my partner in crime. We hit it off from our very first conversation and somehow I knew this was going to be the man I spent my life with. We got married and had two children in 3 years and needless to say my life went from zero to sixty in the blink of an eye. I am a planner. I like to be prepared for what is coming next. I have a vision of how things “should” be and when things...